“Charlatan’s Host” - Oh Sleeper

“Oh God, please! Please! Deliver the penalties for all of this from me.
I’m not finding justice, no warrant for mercy…
don’t give up on me. Don’t give up on me!
What happens when I turn and run again? And again, and again?
“I will forgive you.”
And what happens when I lie to your face?
“I will forgive you.”
Oh my God, I can be so defiant to someone who’s arms stretch to me.
“I will forgive.”
Don’t give up on me! Don’t give up on me!
“I have forgiven you!”
I’ll awake to new purpose to fight this body.
No longer will I play the dark shepherd.
Let not my words be ripped from the throat of a horror.
Oh, Forgiver! Where is justice in letting me live?”