The truth?

The truth is I struggle. Everyday is a battle. Lately it’s been a losing one. But you see, that’s where God comes in. He looks at me, this pathetic mess, and sees something of worth. He says, “Son, I never asked you to fight your battles. I’ll fight them for you. I just want you to stand.”

So I guess this is just a one time thing, or at least until I have the dire itch to write something again

I am awake.
No longer asleep while You suffer.
You cry out, and I watch with You.
I see your anguish.
As I watch, you tell me:

“My soul is crushed with grief to the point of death.” Mark 14:34
Get up and pray. “Get up and pray.Otherwise temptation
will overpower you.” Luke 22:46

I’m no longer asleep. I’m awake.

I’m no longer asleep. I’m awake.
Furthermore, now I understand.
Why was it so hard to grasp before?

You had to die for me to understand.
It took that much to break through my thick skull!
Even worse, It took longer to break through my heart of stone.

My heart is broken, yet healed.
Through Your grace and through your suffering.

“They gambled for his clothes, throwing dice
to decide who would get them.” Mark 15:24
“They dressed him in a purple robe and made
 him a crown of thorns.” Mark 15:17

“And the people passing by shouted abuse,
shaking their heads in mockery” Mark 16:29
And then what did You do?
You took three nails!
You took three nails for us!
But then what did we do?

“You will deny me three times.” Mark 14:30

How unjust. How One just died for me.
You, who followed so obediently!
What can be done now? What work is there to do?
Get up and pray.
How unjust. How One just died for me.
What can be done now?
“Get up and pray. Otherwise temptation
will overpower you.” Luke 22:46

I’m no longer asleep. I’m alive.